And you thought I was dead or something… I don’t blame you. It did seem like it to me as well. Which reminds me, my life has always resembled that of a movie.

Let’s see. Hmmm, this time it may have been a combination of… oh let’s say… heartbreak, laziness, a blank mind, freezing temperatures and a month-long case of severe cold. Now, is this drama or what?

A blank mind I still have, for sure. But I think it’s long overdue that I, at least, give a little shout out to my friends out there. Let them know I’m still around.

So, what’s going on lately, you ask? Not much, really. It’s been busy at work. Heck, it’s always busy at work… even when it’s not. I think that’s how I kill time and make everyday worthwhile. I simply keep my mind preoccupied… just being creative and productive. Even if it’s just ranting here on the bloglines, in fact. I really am grateful that I love what I do though. It really does make my daily efforts worthwile. Now, if I could only rock out on the guitar as well, huh? It would be heaven! But we don’t get to have our cake and eat it too, now do we?

It’s okay, I guess. I love where I am right now. I remember coming back home (Cheyenne) from visiting home (Manila). It was a revelation. Right when the plane landed at LAX, and I was walking outside of the airport, it was a sigh of relief. Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoyed my trip and am very grateful to have seen my family again after almost 20 years. But being back here in the States made me realize, this is where I belong now. This is it. This is home.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and fix things. But then again, do I really want to do that? I mean, it’s been one hell of a ride, I know. But at the same time, like I said, I love where I am now. And “now” would not be here the way it is if things didn’t happen the way it did.

Huh? What in the world am I saying? After all this… well, y’know.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that gratitude makes you not regret anything. Gratitude only makes you accept, learn and move on… all with a smile on your face. Now, if that’s not life, I don’t know what is.

It’s 10:30pm right now. The wind is howling mad. And there’s food cooking in the crockpot. Oh yeah! In honor of Mardi Gras, I’m getting into some Red Beans and Rice action! Anyhow, even though the thing is set to automatically cook for 10 hours, I couldn’t sleep. I keep checking to see how things are. The smell is making my tummy growl more than it’s making me snooze (and this, after having eaten a big plate of lasagna just a couple of hours ago). Oh, by the way, we’re having a Friday potluck at work tomorrow. That’s what it’s for. And I’m excited that I’m able to be a part of it. Show off, if you will, a little of my cooking expertise (if you could call it that).

And so anyhow, yeah… life goes on. And life is awesome. Even when sometimes it’s not, it still is, in fact. Gratitude. It does make you move on. I’m just pondering on that right now. Hmmm…

I gotta go though. Go to sleep. To the kitchen. Sleep. Kitchen. Taste food. Might need more seasoning. Oh well. It’s all good. And I hope you are too.

See you soon.