reflection

A little reflection

| Chris

It seems like forever, the last time I was around here, doesn’t it? I’m grateful to those who are patient enough to let me get through what seems to be a blackout of sorts. It only makes sense, I think, to stop writing rather than post a bunch of worthless junk, just for the sake of posting.

But here I am today! Oh yes, happy new year to all! I’d like to take things one day at a time and start over fresh. Or something like that. I want to be able to capture the sincerity I’ve always attempted to achieve in my words. Though these days, it seems like I’ve been reminiscing a lot about the past. Could this be that the past has been haunting me! Geez, I hope not. But I do have a wonderful past that I’m very grateful for. A past that made me the person I am today. And I think it’s worth visiting.

One frozen moment at a time.

Yesterday, I was cleaning up some here in the house when I happen to dig up some old pictures from years past (that was before we stored them in hard drives). I was going through a lot of them and next thing you know, I get a cramp from having sat on the floor for a few hours straight. But they put a smile on my face and made me realize how lucky I am to have been blessed with a good life. To have gone through places, relationships, and even some hard times. They’re all wonderful, I think. And worth looking at, from time to time. I can’t remember the last time I flipped through my old photos. But today, I wish to revisit some of them on a regular basis. And share the memories with you.

But I do have to scan them first, don’t I? Hang tight…

(Goes to Office Depot to get a cheap scanner.)

Okay, I’m back. Hmmm, let’s see. Oh, here’s a good one to start… a picture of me on the edge of a cliff.

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This was taken in the summer of 2000. A few of my friends and I went out to the Grand Canyon in Arizona for a little spiritual retreat. Here I am, looking so incredibly confident even when in fact, I did decide not to take that leap of faith, after all! Good idea, maybe. However, I remember how rejuvenating it was, not only to stand on the edge of a cliff that goes thousands of feet down below, but to savor the utter beauty of nature and life, as well.

I may not be going back to the Grand Canyon anytime soon, but I would love to revisit the feeling of having seen its awe and majesty. That feeling of possibility. And eternity.

It does good to the soul, I tell ya!

All is quiet

| Chris

Happy new year, everybody. I’m grateful to be kept in good company by fellow bloggers like you, during these past few months. Now, I look forward to an even more meaningful interaction this year.

Meanwhile, I’d like to start us all with a little vintage U2 action, if I may. This video (and song) may not be the most uplifting pick for the occasion, I know; yet the snow and the deafening silence couldn’t make it any more real and honest, in my case. Though, more importantly, it ROCKS!

Today is, indeed, very different from the firecracker noise and smoke-filled skies, I’m so used to. No doubt about it, all is quiet on new year’s day. At least, in my neck of the woods, it is.

However, not to burst Bono’s bubble… some things do change, apparently.

2007 is blowing in the wind

| Chris

I got up out of bed this morning to the relentless howling of the wind pounding on my windows. As if it was my usual alarm clock trying to tell me, I’m late. Suddenly, my groggy brain was bombarded with strange early morning questions, like…

Late for what? I’m on vacation, as far as I can remember.

So, curious as a cat, I put on a ski jacket and bravely opened my front door to see if the neighborhood was still intact. The raging wind was so determined to not let me peek outside, that I had to fight my way out the door. Why? I mean, I had to push like a maniac, for crying out loud! This is nuts!

I stood outside the porch for a minute just to start my day with some fresh air in my lungs (while holding on to the rails, of course). And then, I realized, it’s the morning of new year’s eve. The last day of the year 2007. I was a bit taken aback by this thought.

Already?

I haven’t even started the year yet, I pondered. No, I mean it. It feels like this year was mercilessly wasted. Like, you know… I could’ve done so many things, but I didn’t. I hate to say it but this year for me is the year of the Shoulda Coulda Woulda. I shoulda, I coulda, I woulda. But I didn’t.

Why, Chris? Why didn’t you?

I have to forgive myself for this, lest, 2008 might not be any different.

Anyhow, it’s getting a bit nippy out there, but I had to take one last look outside, as the year comes to an end. It wasn’t the year I was hoping for, but I have to say, that 2007 has been good to me, nevertheless. It could’ve been worse, indeed. Even though, there were things I wish I could have resolved; things I could have answered. Oh well, it would all have to wait for now, as this year is about to go away forever. Right now, I just want to savor the last day of the year. I want to be grateful for what it’s been. Good or bad. And, I want to hear it, as it bids its last goodbye.

Can you hear it? 2007 is blowing in the wind.

And, that could very well be the answer, my friend.